The midway dilema

Last night I stood in front of my closet trying to decide what to wear today to work. I am at the point of the weight less part of my journey that I am not fitting into my bigger clothes but I cannot wear my smaller clothes. And I am curious what I wore between those sizes as I was gaining weight? Well whatever I wore, it isn’t in my closet now. So I have to decide what I am going to do. Do I continue to wear my bigger clothes until I can fit into my smaller clothes or do I bite the bullet and buy more clothes? My hope is to get into my smaller clothes and stay there and not need the bigger and middle clothes again. There is a part of me that doesn’t want that safety net in my closet. Despite that little voice I am going to bite the bullet for a few reasons. First of all having clothes that fit me make me feel better. It makes me feel good about what I have accomplished so far. Why shouldn’t I look good too? It is all about finding that comfort in your body at every stage of your weight loss. I believe that in order to have success in maintaining a healthier lifestyle you have to have a healthy relationship with your body. No I don’t like that I have a belly and I have never had a belly before but my belly is smaller than it was two months ago and it may be even smaller two months from now. Secondly half way through any weight loss program the weight doesn’t come off as easily as it did in the beginning. I may be here for a while and having to wear clothes that are too big may not motivate me to move forward. It is easy to tell yourself well I might as well just give up if I am going to lose this little and have to work so hard. My bigger clothes are comfortable and they have been there for me. Seems silly I know but we all have those things that prevent us from success mine may be a talking pair of jeans. Thirdly it is my birthday month so buying a few new pair of pants and maybe SHOES is a gift to myself. I have put myself through the ringer physically and mentally over the years and trying to fix all the harm I have done is hard work. I should reward myself. Right? Lastly when you buy new clothes other people notice your weight loss progress. Let’s face it positive attention is a real motivator. Today I wore something I hadn’t in a long time, one of my co-workers grabbed me and told me I was looking really good, she said I looked healthy and happy. I had told her when I started this that it wasn’t just about losing weight it was about getting out of the habit of using food to motivate my feelings. She understood it and has been a great source of support so her kind words mean a great deal. So as I am only three pounds from the midway point of my weight loss goal and it is my birthday month. I am going shopping!Smaller pants here I come!